Just as quickly as we were reunited, we are now divided. I feel some sort of way about it, but unsure of what the emotion is. He hasn’t been supportive. He won’t be. Therefore I sought out attention elsewhere. He’s nothing I want, but sort of what I need. I don’t feel bad or guilty. I do know since justin can’t even check on me I need to find someone who will and is. lewis is my polar opposite. He helps me smile during the day. I really just need some love and affection. I’m getting neither right now. What I am getting is conversation and time. I’m an attention seeker. I want my interest peaked. so give it to me before I take it.